Mindfulness

Mindfulness - the act of focussing only on the present moment. It's good. It works. But not always. I can't hack it at all if I'm honest!

This is me and mindfulness.....

Okay, breathe in, empty brain of all thoughts. Thoughts, that's a funny word. Actually brain is a funny word too. I like words. What other words are good..... hang on, focus, breathe, empty mind. Right. Must not think about problems and stress. Nothing to be stressed about. Stress is for suckers.... oh jesus, that's the postman, more bills. Bill. That's a funny word. It's also a man's name. Funny. Hang on. Focus. Breathe. Forget the bills. I must pay that other bill too though. Must give the school a ring too. Ring, funny. The ring of fire... the ring of fire... dum de dum de dum dum de dum. Was that Johnny Cash? Course it was. And that other one. Beyonce. I wonder if she does mindfulness. If you like it then you should've put a ring on it. If you like it.... Hang on, focus. No singing. How many breaths is that? Should I be counting them? Fuck. I'll start again. Am I to breathe in and clear my head or breathe out and blow stuff away from my head? Or is it just focus on the breathing? That's it. No, that's not it. It's don't focus on breathing at all. Is that it? Which is it? I need a book on it. Or maybe a course. I can't do a course. Too much going on. How can I fit in a course when I'm trying to drive everyone everywhere and work and clean up. Jesus the house is in shit again. I must clean it up after I do this mindfulness. Breathe. Focus. Or don't focus. Whatever the fuck it is. Think of a blue sky. Oh that's nice. God there's a plane. I wonder where they're off to. Jammy bastards. I am not stressed. I am relaxed. I am focussing only on the present moment. I'll just grab a biscuit as I focus only on the present moment. Jesus, that's a nice biscuit. Focus. Biscuits. Water. Focus on the sea. Oh that's nice. Calm waves. All is right with the world. I can hear the gentle waves calming me. Must not think of anything else except the sea. Clear head. Breathe. Beautiful water - eeeew remember that time I saw all those bandages and condoms in the water. Eeew. Pollution. DIrty bastards. And beer bottle on the sand. Jesus people are dirty assholes. Breathe.